Who are we and what influences have shaped and molded our lives to become who we are today?
In my life I’ve dealt with addiction, depression, anxiety, fear, hopelessness, feeling that I’m alone and unloved. These feelings hindered me for a long time, until I made the decision to heal them so they would not affect me any longer. But, I had to dig deeper.
Where did these feelings come from? Through my own healing work, I was able to dive into my subconsciousness, and many things were revealed. I had to look at the whole picture. Why, in so many lifetimes, have there been these recurring issues that caused me to disconnect, leaving me imbalanced.
We have to go deeper…
Perhaps, it requires taking a look into each lifetime, tracing back to the Heavens from which we’re all born. In my subconsciousness, I felt unwanted, unloved, and abandoned because a very long time ago, our Father in Heaven was angered towards Mother God and he cast her into the darkness. I realized that I had sided with the Father (translation: guilt, shame, and sorrow for decisions that I made). Mother God (in the darkness) left all of her Sons and Daughters behind, alone. Therefore, throughout every lifetime after that point, I had to punish myself through destructive behaviors because of the decision that I made to side with Father God. This led to me having abandonment issues because I chose not to heal within each lifetime, and refused to deal with these issues. In this life alone, I had to endure heartache, pain. and suffering. I’ve been abandoned within parental relationships, personal relationships, and friendships.
Laws of Attraction
We manifest and attract things into our lives through issues that are not healed. These feelings manifested through what was not healed within me. Misery loves company. Negative and low vibrating energies were attracted to me through my unhealed emotions, which also caused and manifested further hurt and pain. Parasitic energy of my unhealed emotions fed on me causing gaps where God’s light could not penetrate and be felt. This hindered my gifts and abilities. Once the healing occurred, what manifested was an abundance of love, a sense of belonging, and above all… hope. This has given me a new sense of clarity in mind on how to evolve and how to further improve what’s in my subconsciousness.
Think of your subconsciousness as a computer.
When your laptop is open, behind the screens, what you don’t see are the many programs that are running. For this analogy, let’s call that your subconsciousness. You can either be programmed to feel lost, alone, and abandoned or you can listen to a different program (God’s love, God’s light) that tells you that you are amazing, beautiful, worthy, a creature of creation, God’s son or daughter. This will give you prosperity, enrichment, contentment, joy, and peace that you will manifest through your healed emotions.
